2/28/2025 Freewrite
It’s been a good day today. It’s been a few days since I discovered this awesome, fruitful nearby library, and I’ve already cracked into some new novels over there. Having a dedicated space where I can study so close to my home is a total game changer. I suppose I found something similar there before, but this is a new level. The books all interest me, they’re more philosophical and linguistics-based rather than engineering oriented. I want to try and cut hope out of my life. I don’t want to be hoping for things, I want to use rationality and understand probabilities for things. I say this because I am taking a rational stance to delay my chances of short-term success for something longer. The next step I might choose is to delete instagram. It feels so radical, doesn’t it? Any yet, I can’t say that any truly productive thing has happened from me having Instagram. I certainly do like the ability to share and store images, though. I do have a lot of images that I love. I would like to have a better camera in order to take said pictures, I suppose. I have my film camera, and my digital camera. I believe both are broken. I’ll try and repair them. I wonder what the next sort of skill I should try and build is. I’m really interested in these books that I have, but I definitely think I should be working toward growing a legitimate skill, something tangible and focused. What could that be? Probably preferable that it’s not on a computer. Maybe some sort of technical drawing? I’ve already began drawing, and I’ve also been interested in architecture and product design as possible career paths. Saying that just immediate sounds so silly, though. Product design? Be for real. The architecture thing, though. There has been moments where I was interested by that, and where I was able to imagine myself pursuing that. Maybe that could be something.